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so whats been really happening all these while after the last entry? awaiting to find out?? dying to find out??? SERIOUSLY THIRSTY FOR IT??!?!?!!?!?!?!!?!? oh well, lets just say, i took up acting classes, plus joined coach body and started catching up with the girls back in school. so all's been truly extremely tiring, however the lack of sleep and concentration has been fun nonetheless!!! really love how my life is going on as it is now. im sticking to doing my work and just focus on whats really important in my life instead of giving into my conversations and supporting the me that was all into self pity and victimizing. on top of all these new news, i finally had a one to one talk with my ex's current beau...who is going through EXACTLY the same thing he did to me 3 years ago among other things he is famous for in the community. no naming names, yet i am very sure no matter what happens around him, i am not surprised at all. he is who he is, so im used to him being him and one of the things is the inability to stick to fidelity towards the current main dish of his life. *rolls eyes* enough of this bugger. i mean, dont get me wrong, though we are ex(es) and he is dating one of my friends i do still love him no matter what. becoz it is him that i love--not the deeds that i encourage. so the other thing is, i have GROWN UP!!! i no longer have problems talking to her or her or her or even her about my past relation. i sense myself literally went neutral when he is mentioned. no huge heart wrecking sensations which i used to get. its like...it being lifted off me. totally amazing feeling! OKOK...so lets move on...what is the main challenge to take up coaching for me? the 1.5 yr plan. no, i mean, its true--all of the new coaches/existing coaches/senior&master coaches, have to come out with plans for their new 1.5 years consistently. THAT is a trigger for me...its just that my issue with planning timetables or time drafts or routine/roster...whatever u call it--IS my issue. so as you can tell, im largely free spirited, i love constant moving and physical movements or even practicals: drills, performances; expression opportunities...whatever that allows me to move; i will be engaged in it. so when it comes to planning and being a strategist; i down right SUCK at it. i mean, yea, in a way its because i was not trained in that expect, on the other hand i am willing to go all out and just go for it! push myself to be honest about what is it that i really wana get out of this 1.5 years. from the 10 areas that was important to me, i tossed a few of them out and only left with bout 4 areas which is freaking important and significant in my life. well..thats all for tonight, my eyes are complaining with their constant running away from the screen! zzz monster!!