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i hate it that i still have things or the urge to even communicate with him. i want to tell him what a coward he is and how i hate even looking at him now. i hate e fact tt i actually allowed myself to be vulnerable around him and laying my guards down just so tt he gets what he wants--a sense of repayment. i hate the fact tt he does not make any kind of effort at all to relate back into my world. i feel like i dont mean any single shit to him at all, and all the things that he had told me before are all lies. every single word he said are lies and a cover up just so i wont hate him and that i would trust him, continue liking him. he's such a fuking dickhead and im again fuking stupid to have believed tt it would work out somehow. and im disappointed that im disillusioned again into believing that there is a chance things might be different this time round. fuk this game of being vulnerable it is a fuking waste of time and my energy. i dont even want alot. i just want one. n he is somewhere out there with all the wrong women. ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGH!