:: snapshot 5 ::

the funny thing about life is that you never really know whats coming until you start opening your eyes and seeing things around you. if anyone should ask me if i know where am i now, i would reply "in what sense?" however i see things moving along the way i've planned them out before leaving my temp home back in dubai. to be honest, i miss that pit of sand. it was a place where i disappear into and escape to whenever things get too overwhelming in singapore. however ever since i came back to singapore, to my family, to my parents, i found myself being complacent for just a little, before pulling myself out of it and getting back on track: moving out, getting a job, attending weddings.... not to leave out the fact that i'm in the mids of opening up my world to someone new after being hung up on some guy for the past 2 fuking years--is really a major change. ohh did i mention he's actually the same age as me? didnt think so. well the whole issue in regards to being with a younger male has always been a no-no for me. i never thought any of them could catch up with me (not that i'm super or something); its just the mentality. i love learning from my man; so if in any case i've to starting schooling e guy, it's an instantaneous "OUT" from my mouth. however, this one is different. i shall not elaborate, lets spare this space for now and see how he actually surprises me, shall we? as of now, i see how i can involve my self in building a better relation with my parents and brothers. my flatmate and i get along fine. getting in touch with old friends or even making new ones. and i'm finally gona start learning something else other than "great seeing you again sir/mdm" or "hope to see you soon, thank you for traveling with us!" *smile. plus the other new hobbies im looking into--like some dance or exercising or completing my driving license, though i still am doubtful of the people around me, i just cant expect them to fill up my expectations. i suppose life does go on becoming lonely again once i get everything on track. till then, just keep flowing.